Can you believe that I've been divorced for 4 weeks already? I don't know if the craziness of the holidays made it go by quickly but the last month has flown by.
And I must say...I am the happiest I have been in a very long time.
Yes, my marriage wasn't completely terrible but it wasn't good enough for me. I wasn't happy and I think that I am way too young to be stuck in a marriage. I want to be married again one day. I want to have more children one day. I want to have my happily ever after one day.
But not yet.
One of my favorite single mom bloggers and her fiancé just broke up. I've been reading her blog since before Peanut's dad and I separated and have always admired her for her honesty. She posed the question the other day as to how long a "man moratorium" should last.
It really got me thinking. I previously said that one of my New Year's resolutions was going to be enjoying being alone. Yes, I do want to be alone but at the same time...should I say no if asked out on a date? What if I pass up a wonderful man just because I think it's too soon? I won't be actively searching out men but what if one finds me?
I've mentioned a couple times in the past that I'm completely open to a casual relationship (I might even have someone in mind...). That idea sounds great to me right now. I like having my alone time, I like having time with Peanut, I like having time with my girlfriends. However, I really have no time right now to spend with another adult day in and day out...it just sounds exhausting to me.
So what do I do? Is staying single after ending an 11 year relationship the "right" thing to do - not just for myself but for Peanut? Or do I take a chance on someone that pursues me - not that anyone is, I'm speaking hypothetically. After all, I am going to need some dating practice. The last time I dated it consisted of figuring out which house party we were going to do beer bongs at that night. I have a feeling dating at 30 is much different - at least I hope so.