I've been slacking. Big time. Lately, I've been starting all of my posts with that and I truly apologize.
I started this blog for my own therapeutic reasons. I was getting divorced at the age of 30 and felt so alone. I felt like no one could really relate to what I was going through but I needed to get everything off my chest. I started blogging about the sad parts of my life.
I slowly learned I wasn't alone.
I learned that there were many other women out there who were scared like me. Women who were scared to leave what others deemed a happy marriage. Women who were scared to become single moms. Women who were scared to start over again.
I slowly learned it's not so scary.
It hasn't always been easy but it got easier. And as it got easier, I started blogging less. I stopped blogging as much because I felt like I didn't need the therapy of writing.
But maybe someone needs the therapy of reading.
Maybe someone out there needs to know that life after divorce does eventually get better. It gets better when you find happiness within yourself and not from anyone else. When you find that happiness by yourself, then you can see if you can find it with another person.
I believe I've finally found that happiness with someone else. I found it with someone when I wasn't even looking for it. It's the kind of happiness that I've never had before.
You know how you can just look into your child's eyes and be overcome with an unexplainable amount of love and happiness? That's how I feel when I look at the Gentleman and I've never felt that with another man before - not even Peanut's dad.
So I need to blog more. I need to share the happy parts of my life and not just the sad ones that I have overcome. For those of you going through divorce or are becoming single parents, I need you to know...it will all be better eventually. Maybe not tomorrow. Maybe not six months from now.
But eventually - it will.